Not feeling it.

Up until the past few days, I really haven’t been feeling the whole internet scene. Honestly, I’ve been in somewhat of a daze for the past few weeks. Between the stress that has been school, Liam, and just the usual daily grind, I just haven’t felt like…anything.

It’s funny though, most would probably think I’m overreacting. My husband included. But honestly, if I have to hear that he’ll be fine one more time, I think I’ll scream. Deep down, I know he’s fine, and he’s going to be the big football player that I imagine him to be. But I’m not ready to fully except that yet, not until I see the proof. The funny thing? This is all rooted in food allergies. Yes. You read that right, food allergies. I’ve become this sheltering mom that I swore I would never be, and the poor kid is 9 months old. I know that soon I will calm down. I have to let it sink in that my kid is allergic to milk, soy, and peanuts. That he won’t be able to eat a cheese burger, or pizza, or cake, or ice cream…without it being some crazy ass special kind that probably tastes like glue. But, I’ll get over it, and I’ll stop acting like it’s my fault for eating all those PB&J sandwiches with chocolate milk while I was pregnant.

The even funnier thing, I know I’m being ridiculous. As I type this, I read it and know that what I’m saying probably sounds completely asinine to all of you.It almost sounds asinine to me. But hey, I’m a mom. What can I say?

ANYWAY, lol. I’ve been crocheting like a crazy woman. I’m working on like three different projects as we speak. I’m working on a blanket for Abigail (and one for bubs too, once I finish hers), bunnies to put in the kids Easter baskets for something cute and personal, and a scarf that I’ve been dying to make. All three projects are fairly easy, and man do I love it. I’ve been saying forever that I wanted to learn to crochet (since I was a kid even), because my grandmother has been crocheting all my life (she’s amazing too). I still have the baby blanket she made me. It wasn’t until recently though that I followed through and actually learned. With a little motivation from Jules and Saha, I went a bought myself some yarn and needles, and haven’t looked back. It’s so unbelievable relaxing.

I’m actually about to go take a nice hot, bubble bath because I need some calm quiet time to myself. And then back to my projects! I’m addicted!